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late night sadโข thoughts about Rhaast in remembering that at one point in time, he quite literally was just a man who loved his country and his emperor with such blind devotion he would've willingly given up his life for it. i mean hell, he willing sacrificed his sanity after engaging in the void wars, because the scars left behind on his body afterward and the memories have haunted him even to this day. like, that man endured a fuckton of trauma but didn't care because he was that devoted. and after Azir died and the light of shurima went out, he felt so utterly lost that he turned to blood magics && warring with the other darkin just to like. feel something. he mangled and twisted himself for the sake of devotion delicately intertwined with insanity and wound up becoming an echo of what he once was
and i think that even though he was determined to cast out all of his own emotions, because devotion was something he experienced to such a strong degree, that no matter how hard he tried to get rid of that, he never quite could. and then he meets Kayn, and even though he goes on and on about how he wants to subjugate Kayn and take his body for himself, he sees Kayn in a similar light to how he saw Azir. Kayn's strength reminds him of Azirs; Kayn carries the same kind of grandeur that Azir once did, and all at once Rhaast remembers the kind of person he used to be. but that devotion has an added twist to it, because deep down ( in my portrayal ) he carries a fondness for Kayn that could be likened to love, though neither he nor Kayn are fully aware of that in spite of Kayn's soul being tightly intertwined with his own. and with this love comes fear -- because if someone like Azir can die, then so can Kayn. Kayn definitely can, but Rhaast refuses to acknowledge that fact and would rather live in silent denial that Kayn could ever leave him ( even though he knows he can and will one day die -- he's no darkin, he can't use blood magic either )
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#ยซ ย ooc tag. ย ยป#ok now i go to bed#i just needed to pour my daily i love rhaast thoughts onto the dash#i like to think maybe even before rhaast became corrupted#that he probably had parents... siblings#possibly even a lover?#that lover is probably a lot like how k'sante and his partner tope were#lovers forged in battle yadda yadda#thanks for coming to my ted talk#thank you forever i'm die
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If anyone allows Zhang Teng to get in again, I'll kill them!
AI DI + talking about & attitude towards death KISEKI: DEAR TO ME (2023)
#kiseki: dear to me#kisekiedit#kdtm#kiseki dear to me#ai di x chen yi#chen yi x ai di#louis chiang#chiang tien#jiang dian#nat chen#chen bowen#userspring#uservid#userspicy#userrain#pdribs#userjjessi#*cajedit#*gif#i'm obsessed with this guy. did you know. COULD YOU TELL.#not included: ai di trying really really hard to kill zhang teng with his own knife#being gifted a shotgun and getting really fucking excited about it#cdy literally saying to him 'if this was 4 years ago you would have killed a bunch of people by now'#and every single line in the 'die before you' ep13 scene bc unfortunately it isnt like i could fit the whole conversation into this set#basically he's feral and should also be allowed to do whatever he wants all the time forever#anyway i'd like to thank god and also jesus that after *gestures* all this AND chen yi getting shot (hah) no one died in this show#.................it would have been really funny if zherui had though. like. it would have been ironic. to me.#because he's always the guy telling ai di to be less violent and then ai di has to scold him about Real Gang Life okjdflkasjdflk#i love to bully that guy idc. <3
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man, am i hungry.
#thank you whoever decided to make jaxon be a food person i'm going to die i think.#just like ghuyuuhhhhhh what a good episode for him.#i'm soooo excited to see where his relationship with khrome goes from here and what it used to be....#cos khrome obviously cares for him but his goals are just different from jaxon's...#and jaxon is just chasing whatever dopamine he can get. WHICH IS SO INTERESTING.#BECAUSE HE SEEMS SO LOW ENERGY IN ALL THE FLASHBACKS. like oiuuyyhju i know wjat you are. all too well.#and then the Food. the fucking Food. he has a dream memory about his friend asking him to be with him forever (stagnant)#and immediately he's like erm. i need the dopamine of food.#also it's played as a joke but sushi is essentially his fucking samefood ๐ญ#i'm. obsessed with him. desperately.#beyblade#beyblade x#hh art#jaxon cross#ekusu kurosu#khrome ryugu#robin kazami
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thinking about post established buddie conceptions of shannon makes me CRAZYYYYYY like we always talk about shannon and eddie being in the hole Together and how her asking for a divorce was her getting out and leaving eddie in it. but. crucially. she didn't actually get out of the hole bc she died. so in this world where buddie finally get together and eddie gets Out. where does that leave shannon? now he's the one leaving her in the hole as he gets out. bc she will forever be trapped on her way out of the hole. so close, but still in it. she didn't get to have ANYTHING, and eddie, bc he's the one who survived, gets to have everything. and she didn't even get to get a divorce. eddie gets to have it all, their son, a real, true love, a family-- an entire life and shannon is stuck forever asking for a divorce from a man who compared their marriage to falling into a vat of chocolate and slowly sinking to death. and he got to get out and learn what love and life should actually look like. but she never did. and i think eddie would hate himself for this
#idk why i've been on such a Shannon Kick lately but thank GOD#bc i'm deeply obsessed with her.....just like eddie#like it's just soooooo tragic#and it always will be. but somehow eddie getting out actually makes it MORE tragic#bc shannon never got out. and all she wanted was a little more time..........#shannon diaz#eddie diaz#buddie#911 abc#eddie x shannon#imagine your husband is GAY and you ask for a DIVORCE and then you fucking DIE. and he gets to have a big beautiful gay love#and life. and you're stuck forever as the woman he married before he found what was actually right#<-oversimplification. of course#if i was shannon diaz i would stop haunting the narrative and start straight up haunting eddie
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WHAT A YEAR TO BE ALIVE-
#i can die happy now#Bc mirror J/C DEFINITELY 1000% explored each other's bodies#(she dominated and teased the HELL out of him is what I mean)#in the year of our lord 2024#I'M SO CALM DON'T TOUCH ME#crying sobbing chewing my hand off#THANK YOU SM PRODIGY I'M FOREVER IN DEBT#st prodigy#star trek prodigy#prodigy spoilers#j/c#janeway x chakotay#Jc#Prodigy
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something something foils moving in opposite directions Goku's always happy to seek and fight stronger opponents because he spent most of his life being the strongest guy in the room and Vegeta wants to be the strongest/is always exhausted to find stronger opponents because he spent most of his life having to navigate his survival around the whims of the strongest guy in the universe room and so Goku has a foundation of safety and stability and so spends his time craving challenge and adventure and Vegeta has a foundation of challenge and adventure and spends his time craving safety and stability and the overlaid section of their venn diagram is that the only way they know how acquire and maintain those things is through battle
#thank you this has been the laziest media analysis post of my career#dbtag#media analysis#something something a game to goku is a threat to vegeta etc#there's a pinned thought here about how Vegeta also didn't learn about the dragon balls until he was ?? 30?? and so all loss is permanent#and goku has been familiar since he was ~12 and hasn't faced a permanent consequence since he was 10 years old and even then he got closure#sometimes I think about how Vegeta saw Trunks die and how Krillin was mad at him for reacting since they could fix it with the dragon balls#but Vegeta has very limited experience with the dragon so to him in that moment that was permanent and Trunks was Dead. Forever.#And we talked before in a 2am post about Vegeta having never experienced grief born of love and I stand by it because his feelings then wer#still very new and very odd and not something he'd accepted until that moment so it was raw power but not as powerful as it could've been#all this to say in my heart of hearts I think Vegeta deserves to retire at the end of super (if super continues) -- not as a warrior#but as an infantryman. he's a prince and now he's got his domain and his family and his planet to look after and I think he deserves#to go home and stay home and help piccolo bully gohan into training more often when goku inevitably leaves to hop the multiverse#geets wanted to take a sabbatical when Bulla was born but didn't get the chance because Freeza coming back freaked him out too much#but whether freeza gets a redemption arc or gets defeated -- Granolah's arc seemed to shift his perspective on being the strongest#and I just grips fist I just think it would be a really nice full circle for Vegeta to inherit his throne in a way he never expected and#finally get his kingdom to look after and protect in the way that he was looking forward to being king of his own planet all those years ag#Goku's got Broly and Jiren and Hit and all the others to keep him busy and happy now -- and if Freeza gets a redemption arc he'll probably#continue playing slap-ass with Goku for the rest of his life -- and Vegeta's got Gohan and Piccolo and Goten and Trunks#I just think them getting a nice bittersweet 'This is where we part ways' would be really nice for both of them because !!#They couldn't have done this without each other. They couldn't have known this kind of life was possible without each other.#So they swap lots and live happier than they ever imagined they could be#especially since Vegeta has proved to himself that he can close any gap Goku creates in progress that's not a concern anymore#And obvs the door's always open!! There's no point closing it Vegeta's tried the locks they don't work on Goku#anyway here's me putting the whole essay in the tags again#this isn't an essay as much as it is stream of consciousness tag blogging#anyway i'm too lazy to write fic or draw comics so we get ramblings instead
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Junicrane/Starstruck Ramble
I will not be brief, all under the cut
To clear some things right off the bat:
No corpse, no proof with Juniper. Obligatory this is set in a canon where he's alive and adjacent to the agency in some way.
Reggie & Juniper are just gay to me, but I don't mind any interpretation of their sexuality
The games are set in 1967/68 to me (based on a couple bits in game) which is before it was legal to be gay in America at least (1971), which is relevant to how I interpret canon as being somewhat grounded in reality, despite unrealistic elements.
This is just an insane amount of headcanons/elements of and AU all culminated into one post. I will talk about some headcanons like they're just facts because they are established in my head, and it saves me over explaining literally everything, however I will explain some parts a little bit for clarity.
Alright. Actual beginning of the ramble:
Juniper is a character to me who had gotten so lost in his job as an actor and a social presence that in the end his whole life revolved around that 'role'. Because of this, by the time he's put into the situation where he's around the Agency, he basically knows nothing about himself, though he doesn't realise at first. Furthermore, what little identity he had has changed in so many ways. He's no longer a beloved famous actor in the prominence of public light, he's legally dead and he tarnished his career just before he was supposed to die, with the bonus of that making him lose the majority of his estate. From that, he also has horrific facial scarring from the electrical burns from literally having his face fried. I believe a friend of mine made a post about this a while ago (I also think they were the first to think it up also), but, to me, Juniper has a permanent trimmer in his right arm (aka his dominant hand) from the electrical current and it is messing with his nervous system.
All in all, he's not doing great, but he's too proud to admit that he's not doing great, because if anything, what's left of his ego is all he has as a defense since he's deep in unfamiliar water.
Before ending up around the agency (I have multiple interpretations of this, so I'm just going to bring it up generally), he'd never actually seen Reggie, and his only impression of him is a single voicemail, which was his only reference he had to later impersonate him. Juniper probably has very little feelings other than the ones he projects onto him because of Phoenix and that, at the very least, he's physically attracted to Reggie to some degree (that's like the beginning of how everything else would tumble into place in this sort of interpretation at least).
And on Crane's side? His feelings towards Juniper are probably very intense and muddled. On the one hand, he adores musical theatre, and that's his now ex-favourite actor. The thought of just casually being around him blows the bit of fanboy in him away at first because THAT'S the GUY, plus the inklings of a celebrity crush which still poke at him. And then there's the rational side of him, which knows Juniper has committed absolute atrocities on the side of Zoraxis, and hates him for that. Then there's how much Juniper comes off as an asshole at first because he refuses to cooperate with anything the Agency tried to put in place. He finds Juniper endlessly frustrating, and yet he's stuck working with him since, afterall, he's the one who knows the Agency's history with Juniper the best. I imagine him acting a lot like how he does IEYTD 1 around Juniper.
At this point, I'm just describing the pitch for a romcom.
I think the start of their relationship with one another largely started with Juniper trying to wind Crane up. It was a way of getting his attention, and I don't think Juniper knows why he's so dead set on that at first, because I don't think he realises he has a crush on 'this grump' at first. (I think that's actually the fun part about these two, because it's almost like a role reversal of the celebrity crush dynamic. This ex-big name actor has a TERRIBLE crush on an average joe and it is KILLING HIM.) But of course the Agency keeps them together because Juniper is at least conversing with Crane, so it's a start.
Through one way or another, they actually get talking casually, at least mildly at first. It takes Juniper a long time to fully deconstruct the wall he's built, and the thing is, Crane isn't the one trying to deconstruct it, at least at first, because yeah, Juniper realises if he wants Reggie to actually like him in any way, he can't keep winding him up. So they talk. Small talk at first, something rhythmic and almost easy to keep to a script. And over time that turns into actual conversations. Genuine ones in which Reggie rips out the occasional one of his jokes which Juniper is endlessly endeared about. The way he smiles just before he makes them, like he wants to chuckle at what he's about to say before he says it. That's probably when Juniper realised that he does have some vague crush on him, and that it wasn't going away.
This is what kickstarts John I can't-buy-you-things-to-impress-you-so-acts-of-service-it-is Juniper to do little things for him. It mostly starts off as him trying to make Reggie his tea how he likes it. However, the nerve damage in his arm makes that hard, as the weight of the kettle and trying to pour is hard all of a sudden. And he refuses to accept that, so he tries for a very long while. Long enough that Crane would go to investigate what was going on. And when he does see Juniper leaning over a cup with the kettle as he uneasily tries to pour it, and when Crane asks Juniper responds so matter-of-fact that his intention is nothing but genuine. And it catches Reggie off guard because Juniper hadn't done anything like that up to that point, and his very apparent vulnerability is so clearly on show.
It shifts something between them.
From that point on, conversations are longer, more familiar. Both of their attitudes soften, and Reggie makes more jokes. Juniper learns how to better use his left hand while strengthening his right back to a point where it could be used again. Slowly, they're both spending time with one another not because they have to, but just because they can. Little bits at first, not too far outside what they already were doing, but those little bits turned into long bits to a point where the other person's company was genuinely desirable.
As time passes, Juniper probably realises that he doesn't genuinely know much about himself or what hobbies he's into, because he never really had the time when he got big, and his home life in his youth wasn't bad, but it wasn't picturesque. I think Reggie would pick up on it, and absolutely try to introduce him to some things he's into. Some things stick, other things don't (corn husking very much stays Reggie's passion, and John will go with him sometimes because it's him, but it's not something he strongly cares for). Crane introduces him to a lot of music, and it's something that becomes a staple between them, with tracks they listen to more than others (tragically, I know relatively little about 60s music so I couldn't really say what). Occasionally they dance, never anything intense, think slow dancing, but the closeness is nice.
Through all of it, Juniper is battling the worst crush of his life, and he can't stand it, because I think he struggles to read people since he doesn't have anything like a script or a director to refer back to, so he has no idea if Reggie likes him back or if he's just desperate for that to be true. I think because of that any sort of confession between them would be incredibly raw, not only because of the time they live in making it hard for them to be truthful about how they love, but because it's a complete show of Juniper who's worked to be this better person. I don't exactly know how that would go, mainly because I don't have one set version of their dynamic, this post is just a generalisation of main consistent points.
Reggie does like him back, because he's gotten used to Juniper being just this guy, not a figure in the public eye, not a Zoraxis lackey, and not any sort of Agency operative (despite being under their care to some degree). He's someone he genuinely cares for, because they've given one another the time of day to learn one another, and I think because Reggie was a field agent, he was a lot better at reading Juniper than Juniper was at reading him. Eventually Juniper's company becomes something he could see around him for the rest of his life, and I think he accepts that he likes Juniper a lot more gracefully.
I think any affection directed at Juniper would at first be met with him feeling a little muddled. Reggie was a very physically affectionate person when he could be, and sure the initial flirting with one another came with the occasional little touches, but everything now was so deeply intentional. I also don't think Juniper would almost ever get over the novelty of being able to kiss him, or many other gestures, because it made the fact that they were together so very real, and it was great. I do think it comes easier to Reggie, and it's a big way of showing how much he cares, so it's important for Juniper to try and show it back because he knows how much it means to the other.
I like the idea of them eventually living with one another, too. I think Juniper would have always had a quiet little daydream of sorts where he does just live a domestic quiet life, and he can with Reggie (well, as close as they can get between the Agency and Zoraxis always being at odds), and he loves that, and he loves him, and it's immense.
I think they cook for one another a lot, it helps Juniper work on his dexterity in a controlled environment, which means a lot because it's a huge point of insecurity (that and his scars). He does improve, and Crane is proud of that and shows it and it's great. I also think they'd probably cook together too, because they can deal with being in the kitchen together and they work well with one another. It's probably a good way for them to unwind because over time they can do it in relative silence.
As I said before, I also think music is a staple in their household, and that Reggie listens to things on vinyl almost all of the time because he likes the background noise. Sometimes Juniper will catch him chuntering along to the music which he finds endlessly endearing. I wouldn't put it past his dramatic ass to also join in to fluster Reggie, but I also don't think Reggie would mind that terribly because Juniper has listened to the music enough to know the lyrics, and that's huge to him.
I don't think they are without rough patches, no relationship is, but I think the good part about them is that they're willing to talk about it (... eventually). They're used to long conversations, and while they're often less fun conversations, they're needed and they know that, and it works out.
Alright. I think I'm done for now. I haven't mentioned everything, but this definitely got the worst of it out of my system. If you ever want to hear any specific thoughts my ask box is open but other than that, behold my general dynamic for these two which has been festering in my head for years. I think they're great
#ty right-agent for explicitly telling me that this would be welcomed you a real one#i had a massive babble to my friend abt what if they all feed me to the hounds for speaking#and he said โgirl that fandom is like 12 people big they need you to speakโ and yeah that also helped#i have a hard time talking if I'm not asked/prompted to that's why i adding tags is great for me. that and i like the format#anyways.#THESE TWO.............dear lord can you tell I have been unwell abt them forever..#this is propeganda (/j) for them. btw. please you have to understand the potential here. it's so good.#it's slowburn <- my (probably) demiromantic ass cannot handle romance without a build up and this set up is perfect (it will never happen)#also i find it easier to write ANYTHING between these two from Juniper's perspective because i find it easier to get into his head#idk reggie is like the gay version of the: what is he thinking of? i could take a bear in a fight. audio ive heard.#whereas with juniper i have him trapped under a microscope#im going to tag this now so i can use the remaining tags to RANT#ieytd#john juniper#reginald crane#junicrane#starstruck#i expect you to die#<- being BRAVE!!!#when I get really excited i start getting like this internal shaking feeling and uh. yeah this rant started that#the worst part abt that is it also triggers my tourettes so like. double whammy. excited about blorbos? jail :(#but. yeah I uh. yeah. sorry this IS so long..I did warn but . AUGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHAHHHHHHHHHAUUUUUUAHHHHHHHHHHHHH#also i did this rant in 2 parts. last night and this morning so yeah uh. yeah.#god im so messed up about these two#make me a boat by the family crest came on while wroting this and while it's mainly a roxanix song to me......AUUUUUG.....#i struggle to find music for these sillies because they have such a specific vibe to me amd I've not quite managed to find something which -#- genuinely feels correct for them and it drives me up the WALL#GOD NIGHT SHIFT JUST CAME OF SHUFFL.....all my ieytd songs are coming out to drive me up the wall.......#FINISHED I've been adding tags as I've gone alonga#thank you for reading hope you enoyed and if you didn't im sorry
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I was just ambushed within the turbulent halls of my own mind by some headcanons about rye ingellvar's childhood that did 15000000 points of psychic damage to me and my heart personally and also made me almost sure of how I want to play it all at the end (very very differently from how I imagined going in!). some 'oh holy fuck this changes everything' rocking my own world bullshit going on in my neurons right now I'm reeling
#I'm sorry to say that despite what I expected I think the dread wolf might be going down violently on my first run???#not because *I* love solas any less but because of who rye is and some of the twists I know happen down the line#which does make for a neat thing b/c I meant to play the crow I'm going with second as initially incredibly hostile#and then growing to feel for him and redeeming him at the end.#so if rye starts out very reasonable and sympathetic and then is brought to 'haha. no. fuck you forever for that in particular' at the end#...a pleasing cosmic symmetry in it I must admit. perfect and also makes me feel a bit sick#I'll try to put together something coherent eventually but for now#it's sort of a 'my name is ellaryen ingellvar you killed the guy#that my brain went 'close enough welcome back beloved and much missed deceased father figure' over. prepare to despair and die'#I think just the killing part might not have done it but everything that comes after? rye is a chill guy until he finally decides#that enough is fucking *enough*. and that was the most enough of all time for them#it also explains rye's accent (one of his primary caregivers growing up was a dwarf)! so many birds with one stone here#also I am so fucking sad now and I did it entirely to myself. I love fiction I love games (embarassingly genuine)#dragon age#dragon age: the veilguard#dragon age: the veilguard spoilers#dragon age spoilers#oc: ellaryen ingellvar#thank god that the romanced solas playthrough is the second one tho that does make things less dire haha#adaar would have given it the good old college try to get solas to change his mind right to the end I think#but even his capable hands and politician's mind could not hold back the sheer beware the fury of a patient man storm#that is about to hit solas for the shit he just pulled. I think rye and solas are -- as it turns out -- TOO alike in many ways#...solas buddy I'm so sorry I'll come back for you on the second playthrough and make it right I swear fhsak#it's just that a second dead dwarf dad has joined the chat to haunt the narrative (and this time it's fucking personal frfr)#it's almost scary how quick I've gotten attached to my rook tho. I've waited A DECADE to save this bald elf man from himself#and then rye shows up with steel in his normally kind eyes going 'no. I want that fucker *dead*'. and I just go anything for you babyboy#I'll see what we can do. unspeakable stuff
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Happy 35th Anniversary to "Seinfeld"!
Just got into this show a little over a year ago for the first time, and it has become one of my favorite shows to ever exist. These four wacky characters hold a special place in my heart, ... yada yada yada.
#gonna save this so i can look at it later#seinfeld#Seinfeld fanart#Seinfeld art#Thank you Larry David for creating this cool show#Will forever be a George fan till the day I die#Typing this as I wear my festivus shirt#Also wore a Kramer painting shirt earlier today#Easy to say I'm the number one Seinfeld fan guys
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i am not sorry for making my personal helper program pull a demi-fiend if i try and leave its folder
i thought it was funny. now if only terminals supported orange text
#digital devil saga#demi-fiend#python#digital devil saga 2#<- if you know you know. if you don't then don't worry about it :)#literally no one else will ever use this program most likely#but i just want seraph to stay within its defined folder#i should probably change it so that it'll run gaea rage if Path.cwd() aka the home folder isn't in the path but#i'm tired and just did a load of bugfixing of cannibalised code#at least using Path.cwd() means i don't have to adjust stuff for moving the folder#also if you don't get the joke: demi-fiend is an optional boss fight in digital devil saga#if you do certain actions like come into the fight with immunities he will spam a move called gaea rage at you until you die#and you will die#the only way to avoid gaea rage is possibly by a lucky miss (good luck keeping that up if he's spamming it forever)#or by having the passive skill null sleep which does not prevent you from being asleep but prevents damage while you're asleep#he'll scripted use it at certain points in the fight but a demon of his will use dormina (puts your party to sleep) beforehand#so you have to hope everyone falls asleep or at least enough people that you can get back in the fight easily#thanks cielo for being weak to ailments. a sentence you would never otherwise say because ailments suck#also i died by gaea rage spam by forgetting to unequip null attack from my back party members so uh. yeah
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does anybody else remember the stream where csap found the death book. no? just me? ok
#link provided for those who may want to watch#his and dxd's interactions were so funny#I don't even think you're god. I think you do think i'm god. Ok i do think you're god#go away i have no more use for you thank you for the book i'll use it EXACTLY how i want to. thanks for telling me where dream is too!#did you just tell me to GO AWAY?#yeah. go! bye bye!#NO i dismiss MYSELF YOU don't dismiss me (random noises) YOU WANNA SEE ANNOYING? YOU WANNA SEE ANNOYING?#they're hysterical. csap was being so catty#probably because he was feeling awful and wanted to die. He did also plan a suicide pact that stream he did do that#he wanted the three of them to be dead together forever i'm gonna tear my skin off#i like to think he left a will (suicide note) for george when he woke up and then tried to take it back after dream died#only to find george (awake) (already read it) looking at him like this โฌญ_โฌญ#i think about this stream a lot#dsmp#c!sapnap#dreamxd
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#you're ever the kind of person that when you receive compliments or a positive heartfelt comment you just?#have to pause and go- no. don't be this nice to me.#cuz it's just too much?#legit not letting yourself dwell on how much that means to you because it kinda hurts? it's pretty much irrational really#feels like cute aggression in a way#like fuck that's so damn nice it lowkey messes me up and I'll keep it forever so when it's not as overwhelming I can revisit#if I ever get to it since most times if its in text I'll file it somewhere and skip reading it for a real long time like years#yeah this was all just a big thank you to anyone who's ever said anything nice cuz shit that might just be why I'm alive#putting that aside i've been just letting this blog die a bit and I might merge it with a few other fandoms to keep it alive...
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"Our thing connects to an app!!!"
Ah... I hate it
#name me a thing and I'll tell you why I don't want it connecting to an app#this time it was me looking into something you could plug stuff into and have it tell you how much energy it used#and so many are like 'it'll send it into an app'#well that's stupid; and I'd like it to just tell me the info on it's own little screen#...saw some brewing video where... mhh... that's right; it was something to measure the... something volume related#you use it to calculate the alcohol content; I'm no brewer; just might like to someday so I sometimes watch stuff#anyway; guess what? app; no screen; only app#...I will fucking just learn to do it the old school way thank you; I'd love for you to make it so I don't have to do math#but not enough to deal with your fucking app that you'll stop supporting in 2 years#juicero ass mentality#'we've made two rocks that squeeze juice out of a drm'd juicebox; please use our app'#fuck your app; fuck it forever#the number of use cases where I want to use an app approach zero#honestly I really only play games on my phone or use it rarely for tumblr/discord... mostly for photos#and even there the games would probably be better on my computer (why are phone emulator's such ass?)#in short; if you tell me the thing you sold me will use an app to work... die#everything ought to be able to be done via the thing itself#...I can maybe; and it's a big maybe; but I can maybe forgive if like... I set up a battery and some kind of house grid control... thing#and I can either interface directly with it via my computer and a usb port; a screen; or if I feel like it an app... maybe... maybe ok#(though... that's a security risk for sure)#but point is apps can fuck off and die forever#they're stupid as hell
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Rebecca (1940, dir Alfred Hitchcock) // Vievee Francis, "Apologia" (Excerpt) // Daphne du Maurier, Rebecca
#rebecca#web weaving#๐ฌ.mp4#lit tag#myedit#it is the key that leads to the kingdom of the unimaginable#''SHE LOOKED ALMOST TRIUMPHANT'' !#has anyone else been ruminating over this scene for years or has it just been me#she is constantly reminded of how different she is from rebecca (wrt beauty wit boldness etc etc)#but in retrospect with this confession rebecca's negatively perceived traits such as selfishness#are intended to be the unspoken additional differences maxim et al see between them#but then she hears maxim's confession and as the shock wears away-- she feels something akin to giddiness#selfishness one could say!#a triumph at last--right there in the chamber. it does feel like she's echoing rebecca a bit#(even if it is a hollow triumph imo)#and do I even need to go into fontaine's acting here. just so good#rebecca is really one of the most interesting iterations of the bluebeard tale#the last wife does still die in a sense. but it is alongside her bluebeard as a pair of unmoored ghosts#while the story remains forever enclosed in the first dead wife's fist#I'm now thinking about that rebecca fanfiction I wrote as a teenager where the first and second wife meet#and maxim just wasn't there lmao. shows my priorities#anyway i'm forever fascinated by both ladies in this story goodnight and thank you
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nanami/oc commission :)
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That! Is it! For stream! Holy Toledo I'm gonna go sleep for a week now. Thank you @ohdezzi and @mabusthedark and @kassil for the raids! Thank you @mabusthedark and @kassil and @redmagedovei and @matchaisspent and @birdneest for making this stream a special one! (please go follow all of them they're cool) We turned around and raided Mabus right back to make it a fun little bookend lol.
Thanks for an awesome year, y'all. <3
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